I am most definitely introverted. For my entire life, this has been a problem for people. From teachers who want me to speak in class (even though I always did well in school) to interviewers who assumed I couldn’t do my job because I’m ‘too shy’. I’ve been told to be louder, to speak up but why should I? I understand that I’ve needed to work on public speaking – I get that. But why should I force myself to change who I am? There’s so many things about me which I cant and dont want to change…
I need time alone
Sometimes I just need a little time alone to help re-energise myself. I’m not meaning to offend if I decline plans, or if I decide to leave early. I just need to be away from people for a while. I’ve already wrote a post about how being alone is a good thing for people. But, unfortunately, I still get a bit of grief for wanting to stay home for a while.
I’m independent
I’m the kind of person who doesn’t need to be around people all the time. I never used to, I used to have to get people to go for lunch, to get my nails done, go to the cinema etc. But not now. I’ve grown a lot since I was 16, now I dont need to be around people all the time. I live alone and I support myself.
I’m a listener
I’m a lot more happy to listen to people than to talk myself. I also hate small talk. I don’t want to talk just because we’re both there, especially if it’s mindless chatter. Although, I will always be there if you need to talk to me about something. But please, don’t discuss the weather and traffic with me.
I may seem awkward
I often struggle to make conversation, especially if I dont know you well and also if it’s over text/messenger/whatsapp. It’s one of the reasons why I havn’t made many friends through blogging, it’s because I dont know where to start. This goes side by side with me being more of a listener.
It’s just my face…
I have a resting bitch face. It happens right? I cant help that my face looks like I hate everyone. Once people get to know me, it becomes a lot easier to see past it.